Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
I'm tired right now, so forgive any overtones of melancholy. I just got back from Knoxville after spending a really great weekend with the boy. We used his fireplace for the first time (two nights in a row) and had fun entertaining a few friends for a dinner party. His new place is really very nice. An unbenounced back injury afforded us the chance to have a lazy Sunday watching Star Wars movies, which I admit I never saw before (I fell asleep through 1 a long time ago) and I'll also admit I like them. Next time the boy and I spend a weekend together, I wouldn't be surprised if it came with the new Star Wars movies in tow.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
This is what I picture my upcoming weekend to be like. The boy and I enjoying coffee while devouring the newspaper or a good book and then each other (hehe). Everyone deserves to have someone they can just sit and read with. (but still be silly later). To be able to just be together. The best part sometimes is the not saying anything, but glancing up, looking at his tousled red hair, and knowing I'm the luckiest girl ever. And then catching him doing the same thing.
Monday, January 21, 2008
It seemed like a regular, chilly winter morning when I tried to pull myself from bed. But the most special winter spectacular occurred. Puttering around the apartment, and cleaning up leftover remnants of the weekend, I stopped to stare out my window. The fluttering of wings and bright red breasts caught my attention. Birds. Birds, robins, everywhere. They were fluttering all about the tree, which I've learned is the Holly Tree, that stands right outside my window. Filled with a glee that reminds me of Spring ahead, I grabbed my camera to take a few shots. I thought the birds might fly away at the sight of the camera, but they stayed in the tree, sharing their happy song and nibbling at the bright red berries. What a sight to see. I imagined they were all greeting me with a chirping hello, and saying "you may have a cold, but spring will be here soon." Every once in awhile we all are reminded it's the little things, and when added up they are the big things in life.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Funny thing is, my boy won't even put "in a relationship" up. Silly boy...who makes me deliriously happy everyday.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Love has been learning to love the man still, even though I despised his actions. Love has been growing closer towards someone and allowing them to get to know all of me, experiencing the strengths, and helping me during the weakness. Love has been being kind to myself even when it got tough. Love has been loving, and expecting nothing in return.
And faith, above all, faith has been trusting and leaning more on God. Faith has been knowing that he desires to make our paths straight, and that if we choose him, love does abound. Faith has been courage to break patterns, behaviors, and habits. Faith has been the ability to see things through till the end, until it was time to move on. It's a desire to move closer to compassion and kindness for all things at all times. And faith has been a steady source of joy in my everyday.
This is my peace.
I choose happiness. I choose love. I choose faith. And in this I find peace.